Drained Power Ready Spirit

Your heart is parched. Your spirit is parched. Broken. Dried up.

Thirsty. Hungry. Craving. Yearning. Empty.

When did it come to this? How did it come to this?

How to start? Where to start? Is there a new beginning? Is there another chance?

Drained willpower? What’s that? None left. Barely breathing. Don’t feel like feeling.

Yet there is life. Yet there is a light. Yet your spirit will not die, it longs to soar.

Your spirit will not die, it longs to spread its wings.

Your spirit will not die, it longs to create.

Your spirit will not give up, it longs to fulfill purpose.

Gotta get up, for it’s another day to breathe, another day to live to its fullest.

How about another try, another step, another push?

Get it done. The spirit is alive and ready! It’s not giving up on you, are you?


Interference of the Past


Reach for the new. Be bold and courageous enough to do so. Turn a new page, start a new chapter. When old things have passed away, they have passed away. When they have fallen away, they have fallen away. If these old things happen to find their way back to us, then perhaps we should take the time to sit and ponder why the past has come back to us. After all, we have moved on have we not? We have turned a new leaf, or have we not? Are we able to write the new chapter of our lives? Are we able to let go of what has fallen off and even faded away?

Hopefully, the past never comes back to torment us, or confuse us. Hopefully,  it comes with beautiful memories. But it doesn’t quite happen that way for most of us does it? Usually it comes with a lot of things we would like to forget, with things that are better laid to rest, whether they are good things or bad things, because we do not want our present to be filled with confusion and endless what if this, and what if that, questions. Hopefully, when we are faced with dealing with the past, the answers will be made clear to us, otherwise it can cause terrible anxiety and sleepless nights, a depth of painful, tangled and messy confusion.

Very few know what to do with the past when it comes back, if it comes back. It probably means that something is not yet finished, and has not yet come full circle, or we did not learn the lesson in it the first time. But it’s difficult and can become complicated, because we are now in a new situation. We did not see the past coming, it took us by surprise, and we do not know how to handle the old unexpectedly interfering with the new in our lives.

We all have similar experiences, but they are unique to each and every one of us, so how we handle the return of the past will be individually based on our character, personality, knowledge, level of awareness, life experiences and the courage to face the truth about our past and present. How we handle the past will also be based on what kind of future we are building or want to build for our lives. How we handle the past will depend on whether we know and understand our purpose in life, and the reason for our existence.

What I do know is that when the past does rear its head, I have to be still, say a prayer, and sincerely ask, “why is this happening now,” and wait for the answer, and wait very patiently for clarity. I do know that I should be careful what I think, what I say, and what I create with and in my thoughts and my words. I find that I should control how I feel and not get carried away in the storms and sweetness of the past. I also discovered that I should not allow myself to be buried in any pain, insecurity or regrets it comes with. I learnt that I should protect myself from being paralyzed by the past, and not stop building, creating and investing in the present and the future.

The past is the past for a reason, no matter how bittersweet. Life continues, and life goes on,  so unless there is something significant about the past that will build and bless our destiny, our purpose, and our calling in life, (and if that is the case it will reveal itself in time), then the old things are passed away; until then, they are only memories of what was, good, bad, ugly, beautiful…

We cannot afford at this present time for the past to consume us. We will only end up slowing ourselves down, and life, things present, things worthy, things we should experience this very moment, things that will build our future and our purpose, will pass us by. I cannot let that happen to me. What about you? Can you afford to let that happen to you?

Come to me, all who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest.

-Matthew 11:28


A Hope and a Future


We have tried so many different ways to be successful, to find peace, courage, love and joy. They have failed us in many ways than one. Let’s take a deep breath from our who, when, where, how, why and what, and try God’s angle shall we?

Do you need direction?

Thy word is a lamp unto my feet, and a light unto my path. – Psalm 119:105 (KJV)

And I will lead the blind in a way that they do not know, in paths that they have not known I will guide them. I will turn the darkness before them into light, the rough places into level ground. Theses are the things I do, and I do not forsake them. – Isaiah 42:16 (ESV)

“For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “Plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.” – Jeremiah 29:11 (NIV)

Are you afraid of the past, the present and the future?

“Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or terrified because of them, for the LORD your God goes with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you.” – Deuteronomy 31:6 (NIV)

Don’t be afraid, for I am with you. Don’t be discouraged, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you. I will hold you up with my victorious right hand. – Isaiah 41-10 (NLT)

Don’t be afraid, for the Lord will go before you and will be with you; he will not fail nor forsake you. – Deuteronomy 31:8 (TLB)

Don’t know who to turn to?

In all thy ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct thy paths. – Proverbs 3:6 (KJV)

Lord, lead me as you promised me you would; otherwise my enemies will conquer me. Tell me clearly what to do, which way to turn. – Psalm 5:8 (TLB)

Do you feel like giving up?

“Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls.” – Matthew 11:28-29 (NIV)

Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you. – Matthew 7:7 Berean Study Bible

What are you lacking?

And this same God who takes care of me will supply all your needs from his glorious riches, which have been given to us in Christ Jesus. -Philippians 4:19 (NLT)

And that dear friend, is the tangible truth.


Don’t You Dare Limp Into 2018


Everything has its timing. Everything has its moment. For the most part when we miss the timing, when we miss the moment, it does not come around. Yes, we are given second chances in life, but the same moment never seems to ever come around again. However, we can make use of the other chances and opportunities that have been, and will be, given to us. We can take advantage of the opportunities that give us another chance in life. Should we continue to wallow in what we missed, have pity parties and limp on into the New Year with deep regret, beating ourselves up, or will we lay the past down and blast into the future?

It appears that life understands that we have missed very life changing and very important opportunities and finds ways and moments to assist us in making up for that by bringing and ushering into our lives new opportunities. If we are too zoned in on the past, if we are too focused on what could have been, if we are too encumbered with wishing this had happened, and wishing that this hadn’t happened, when and how will we able to take hold of the new? If we are so soaked in the old, how will we be blessed by the new?

Lay it all down dear friend. Lay down the stuff that is holding you down, pulling you back and short-circuiting your dear life. Let’s go into the New Year with a joyful stride, dropping all the weights and enter all the weights. It does not have to be a loud stride, it can simply be a quiet determination, a quiet decision, to bury the past, leave it where it belongs, and embrace the chance and opportunity to experience something exceptional in 2018. People don’t even have to know or hear about it; what matters most is that you have found the will to become who you should be and what you should do, in order to fulfill your purpose. Picture where you can be, where you should be, in the New Year, and begin planning and working towards what you see, what you imagine and what you know you can be and do. What is stopping you?

Strive to make the brave choice. Look at the root of the problems, the troubles and torment raging within you. Take your eyes off what others have done to you, or what your mistakes in life are, and focus on cleaning yourself up and growing beautifully. Make that choice. Make that decision. Make that determination. Your life, your destiny, your future, the purpose for your existence, depends on it. Your joy, your peace, your mind, your soul, your spirit, depend on it. Don’t deprive yourself of another chance!

Prepare yourself for the future. Don’t wait until 2018, do it now, and enter the New Year with knowledge, power and victory.

What are you waiting for? Don’t you dare limp into 2018! I am cheering for you!




Don’t Give Suicide Another Life


A friend reminded me that this is the time of year that many will take their own lives, and so I am writing to you in desperation. Do not allow suicide to take your life. Do not let suicide score with your life. You are too special. I am writing to the souls who are feeling suicidal. Please don’t. Please don’t do it. The darkness crowding in on you does not have to determine your future, your destiny, or your end. It may not feel like it at the moment, but you do have the power to conquer that. You have the power to overcome it. Believe it! You can have victory over suicide. You don’t have to go beautiful one, precious soul. Stay with the rest of us. Beat suicide and let your colors overwhelm the darkness.

It may not feel like it, this very moment, but there is a precious reason why you exist. There is a valuable reason why you are here. There is a worthy reason for your presence on this Earth. Your life, no matter what has been done to you, no matter what your choices have been, and where they have led you, is not a mistake. Please wait. Hold on. Hang in there. I don’t know who you are, but we are fighting for your life, your spirit, your soul and your mind right now. Stay, don’t give suicide another life. There is help!

When Jesus saw her, he called her over and said to her, “Woman, you are freed from your disability.” Luke 13:12 (ESV)

It may be extremely difficult to see, feel and comprehend it right now, in your current state of loneliness, rejection and feeling defeated, but there still is a light in you, and there is still purpose residing within you, waiting for you to tap into it and take off.

Don’t lose your power and give in. Have the courage to live. Have the courage to thrive. See yourself in a different light. Give yourself another chance, and dare to believe that you are more beautiful than how you feel right now. Breathe. Fight. Live. And there is One who can help.

And Jesus went throughout all the cities and villages, teaching in their synagogues and proclaiming the gospel of the kingdom and healing every disease and every affliction. –Matthew 9:35 (ESV)

Precious friend, wonderful soul, if death is going to come, it will come in its own time. Don’t give in to suicide, don’t succumb to it because you are feeling worthless, dark and depressed, and feeling like you can no longer go on. Reach deep for the light within you. Reach for God who created you with more strength, more power and more love than you can ever imagine!

I know that life can be brutal, I know that it can be unjust, it can be a nightmare, and people can make you feel like you are not worth the life that you have been given. BUT THAT IS A LIE. There is a quality about you, there is a uniqueness about you, there is something which only you have, to give to this world, so live and give the world your gift.

Let your colors shine in the darkness! Don’t allow the darkness to take away your colors. Stay alive and overwhelm the darkness. Do not let it overwhelm you. Choose life!

This is my comfort in my affliction, that your promise gives me life. 

Psalm 119:50 (ESV)

Don’t give suicide another life. Not yours.


Their Trend But Your Design



We all have certain similarities, but each of us is created with a very unique design. Furthermore, we are influenced by different values, cultures, upbringing and beliefs. Who is the architect of your life? Who is in charge of your life? Who is building into your life? What are they creating? What are they constructing? What are you doing about it? Be careful whom you allow to whisper into your heart, your soul, your spirit, and your senses. Take the time to find your own design, develop it and build it. Give it a strong foundation.

I find that in these times that we live in there is a lot of seduction, and plenty of charm circulated and dispersed everywhere we go, burying, or attempting to bury, each of our unique designs. There are a lot of things, a lot of people, a lot of systems in place, whispering and promising us pleasures unheard of. They are appealing, alluring, magnetic, attractive and magical, and the clause or rule is, we can only experience them if we lose our unique designs, and follow the trend and be like everybody else. The question is, what is everybody else following? What are they seeking? What will they find? Where will they end up? Do you want to end up there as well, whatever that “there” is? I don’t believe that even they know what or where the “there” is. But our desires have been awakened, and so we follow, blindly.

We have been told that the only way to survive this world is to belong by following the trend. But have you noticed that between yesterday, today and tomorrow, in the blink of an eye, the trend will have changed, yet again, and is emptier and unfulfilling than the last one. The seductive promises that if we do things a certain way, be a certain way, talk and walk a certain way, we will be in and acceptable, because that is the trend, turn out to be lousy promises.

A trend is what it is; it is called a trend because that is what other people are doing. It permeates our lives and without thinking, it becomes part of our lives, and we do not question it, because everyone else is caught up in it, and intoxicated by it. So it must be right, right? The trend does not heal our pain, after all. The trend does not take away our grief. The trend does not make us whole again. Yes, it may bring swift pleasurable relief, but then it disappears, as quickly as it came, and we are left bereft, depressed, most likely leaving us in a worst state than when we first encountered it’s enticing promises.

Who does your heart say you are? Who does your spirit tell you that you are? Let me guess; that you were not created by, or, with a cookie cutter. Your common sense is telling you that you are not a square to fit into a circle, neither are you a circle to fit into a square. Your spirit and your heart are telling you that you are more divinely created than a mere trend. Matter of fact, every time you try to fit in, it never works. It might feel alright for a quick second, but your heart and your spirit restlessly remind you that even though the odds might seem against you, and that it is easier to be like everyone else, you were created with a uniqueness and with a specific purpose in mind.

Have you ever thought about walking away from the architecture of the trends in order to seek who you are and find your own purpose and build it? Have you ever thought about walking that lonely walk of self-discovery, staying true to yourself and who you are? Has it occurred to you that there is nothing wrong with not fitting in, and that there is wisdom, power and strength in that? Has it dawned on you that you will only find true joy, and true peace, even when times are rough and tough, when you can meaningfully and genuinely answer the question, “Who am I, and what is my true design?”

Have you tried to discover your own unique design? Who, what, is building and constructing your precious life dear friend? Who is telling you to go this way, go that way, no change your course, again, now go this way? Be careful. Protect your heart, your mind, your spirit and your soul. Guard your unique design; the foundation that you lay, and the architecture, construction and building of and for your design, really do matter.


Painting the Canvas of Our Lives


If we were given blank canvases and we were asked to paint our lives thus far, including everything that we can remember and of course, the things that we do not want to remember, what would the canvas of our lives look like? Begin to imagine what that would look like. Which colors would end up on the canvas of our lives, what shades, which dark colors, which bright colors, would end up on our individual canvases? If we were asked to paint the canvas of our lives today, right this moment, which colors would we start with, which colors would we joyfully paint, which colors would we cringe and wince from painting? Which colors would make us want to continue painting, which ones would make us want to stop painting?

I wonder if anyone’s canvas would be filled with only bright colors. I highly doubt that, but I could be wrong.  I know for a fact that mine would not be. Mine would have not only dark and bright colors put on me by others, but also dark and bright colors put on me by my choices and decisions in life. Mine would have not only dark and bright colors, and colors in between, but would also have different textures and many different shades. What would your canvas look like, what would it feel like?

There are some colors we would enjoy and lovingly paint on our life’s canvas, but there are others we would rather not remember, and rather not acknowledge and paint, because just the thought of them hurts too much. However, maybe, if we do find the courage to paint them onto our canvases, we will find some healing, and start the beginning of a new and fulfilled life, because we have finally chosen to face those demons and gotten them out either completely with one stroke, or little by little, with one stroke at a time.

My two cents on this matter is to keep on painting, every second, every hour, every day, every week, every month and every year. Keep on painting until you weep, until you burst into joy. Keep on painting no matter how rough, no matter how liberating, because there is more paint coming your way, every day, and your canvas of life will only become bigger and bigger, as your colors flow from within. Keep on painting until you find your direction in life, until that direction leads you into purpose. Keep on painting until you find yourself becoming more and more enlightened, and finding the boldness to find, build and fulfill your purpose.

What does the canvas of your life look like so far? No matter how rough or beautiful your life’s canvas becomes, don’t stop painting, because there is always more paint leading you to a larger and bigger purpose.


Take Good Care of Yourself

We are all capable of performing some deep soul searching in order to make the right choices, and become better and wiser at making those choices. We can make wiser choices for our hearts, our souls, our spirits, and our minds. We can make wiser choices about how we treat others because our treatment of them ultimately affects our lives. There is a time to be young and foolish, as the saying goes, but there  is a time for maturity, where our lenses in life, and of life, should change, and change for the better, after we would learned from our past mistakes, things we have done and things that have been done to us. Endeavor to take better care of yourself, strive to take good care of yourself, determine to take beautiful care of yourself. Be careful how you live your life and how you treat others, it will determine how healthy your life will become mentally, emotionally, spiritually, and even physically.

When a situation is extremely difficult I find that to take care of myself better, I have to be careful how I react for my own sake, for my peace of mind, and that of other people’s, especially if I don’t want to go back and say I am sorry. For me, having to go back to say I am sorry, is a biting reminder to myself that I perhaps could have handled things better, differently, if I had just taken that one deep breath, paused and taken the higher ground. Easier said than done, it can be so very difficult to take that higher ground. Sometimes I want to pretend it doesn’t exist and I want to give in to my carnal nature and fight back!  However, I find that if I take that one deep breath, walk away for a minute, a day, a week (dependent upon how deep the cut and how emotional I feel), I will find the strength, the peace and the wisdom to handle the situation or person more appropriately.

A positive, mature, and constructive response comes with a lot of practice and an attitude that is always less on the defensive. That’s why when we are angry, weak, confused and hurting, we should take better care of ourselves by not talking to just anyone, but selectively talk to a very few, who we know will keep our minds and spirits healthy by being straight shooters with us, and not encourage us to hold self-obsessed, bitter and angry pity parties. No matter what our upset, they are able to lovingly but firmly give us an objective and healthy perspective, one that helps us to go back and self-reflect, figure out how or where we went wrong, and what we could have done better. A lot of times it hurts, but if we want to take better care of ourselves, if we want to be a better individuals, we have to be careful and selective of who we allow to whisper into our souls, our hearts, our minds and our spirits, because we should only want the truth, which indeed does liberate us.

The more we assist ourselves in becoming better individuals, the deeper we are able to love ourselves, the better we are able to treat others, the more we are reminded to remain peaceful and use our power in a gentle but confident manner. We have the right and the capacity to be our best selves, even with all our imperfections, even when handling and dealing with other people’s imperfections. It brings you peace of mind, better self-acceptance and better self-love, not arrogance and pride, just gentle love and humility for yourself and towards others.

We can develop the ability to achieve quiet inner confidence and a power that propels us to serve and uplift, support and sustain others, bear up and bring solace to others. In turn, as we do so, we experience deeper peace, acquire greater strength, become filled with in depth wisdom, and the courage to love not only ourselves more and more, but others as well. It is not about becoming a people pleaser, it’s about becoming our better selves and taking better care of him or her. And as we do so, we become more careful about how we treat others and in turn it creates, develops and builds a healthier self-awareness, self-love and self-worth state of being.

Take good care of yourself!


A Journey of Self-discovery


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Do not allow fear to make you become or act like anyone else but your better self.

Know that there is more to you than fear. Take a deep breath, have integrity and focus on recreating yourself and building yourself into Quiet Power, Peaceful Confidence.

Quiet Power is not in the noise, the loudness, rudeness or meanness. It is not in the empty vessels and clanging cymbals making the loudest sound. Peaceful Confidence is the gift that comes when you purposely make the choice to point fingers at yourself and not at others and make a purposeful decision to work on your own inner person and outward character. That is personal integrity: when no one is watching, when you are not trying to impress anyone, are alone in your own quiet space, you make the decision to change within and outwardly do things for the better.

Get into the root of what you have become and make that change.

Remember that those tough, challenging moments are training grounds for you to see your weaknesses in character and in your personal integrity. They are here to urge you to take responsibility and make a change within.

The tough moments, if you allow them to do so, will shape you, anchor you and support you in making a decision to fix things in a way that will enhance your life and that of others.


What Has Stopped You?


Define who you have become. Is that who should be?

Do you know who you should be as a person? Do you know your purpose in life?

What has stopped you? Describe what has stopped you from becoming that person.

Describe what has stopped you from fulfilling your purpose.

If you have never thought about it, think on it now. Does anything come to mind?

What are you going to do about it?

Make the brave choice, and fulfill your purpose.