Faith Too Illogical Too Irrational

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Illogical and Irrational Faith. That is what many of us lack but what many of us need. Stop rationalizing and ask. I know what the science says, but ask. I get it, it all seems useless and futile but press in, press on and ask. Faith is your gift. Faith is for all. Asking is for everyone. Stop the logic. Block the intellect, let go of the science, test illogical, irrational faith, and ask. Stop trying to do the math. Stop trying to fix the puzzle. You are out of your league, but your pride and ego have reared their heads. You must fix this yourself! Stop that.

Admit you do not know. Admit you do not have an inkling of what to do or say, because this one, this time, is beyond everything you ever learnt or known. It is beyond all the books you ever read, the pods you listened to, the YouTube videos you watched, the Facebook pages you scanned through, and advice from friends and family. This one needs some divine intervention, not the voice of society, school, college, research, the internet, and human logic. Not that they are bad but you are in need of something, someone divine. This particular situation demands that you ask in faith and believe that God, {yes, HE IS REAL), will answer you. Trust me, the way He answers will be well beyond your logic, thought or imagination. It will be well beyond any solution, logic, reason or results you would have come up with on your own or through the wisdom and knowledge of Man. Stop being your own obstruction and ask. Stop getting in your own way and ask.

Is there anything wrong with logic, common sense, science, college or research, or good advice from family, friends, colleagues, professionals and experts? No, of course not! But you and I both know that there are matters that are beyond human intelligence and human fixing. As intelligent as we are, some matters and issues of life only divinity, not humanity, can solve. Some are too deep, too complicated and too embarrassing. Few and far between will we find folks who are willing to hold our hand and walk through the fire with us. 

Here is the question. How deep is your frustration? How deep is your pain? How deep is your agony? How long have you waited for an answer? What has this unsolved problem done to your life? What will this unsolved problem continue to do to you? What effects will it have on you and your loved ones? What effects will it have on your work, your dreams and your purpose in life? How long will this problem hold you back and how deeply will it trap you and hold you hostage? The longer you wait the worse it gets, so stop the logic, stop the reasoning and ask already.

Let your faith be too illogical. Let your faith be too irrational.

Value your life, soul, and spirit enough, forget about pride and ego, and ask.

Value your life, soul and spirit enough, forget about your public image, and ask.

Value your life, soul and spirit enough, forget about your title, and ask.

Value your life, soul and spirit enough, forget about your facades and masks, and ask.

Value your life, soul and spirit enough, forget about your wise plans, and ask.

Value your life, soul and enough, forget about trying to prove something, and ask.

Are you too dignified to ask? Ask for help.

Are you rich, are you poor? Ask for help.

Are you accepted, are you rejected? Ask for help.

Are you feeling too unworthy? Ask for help.

Are you feeling as though you are too far gone? Ask for help.

Have others told you not to bother? Ask for help.

Do you think it’s useless to ask? Ask for help.

Is it too irrational, too illogical to ask God for an answer, response, or solution? Ask anyway! Be irrational, be illogical. Shake off and unwrap yourself from a false sense of human security. Apply irrational, illogical faith.

We all need to ask. We will all find ourselves in these immeasurable moments of pain, frustration, illness, confusion, trauma and hurt, where no one can assist, heal or uplift us. In those moments, whether we like it or not, we will need the One who created us, who knew us before we were formed in our mothers’ wombs. We will need the One who completes and makes us whole. We will need the One who sees the beginning from the end and the end from the beginning. We will need the one who makes a way where there appears to be no way. We will need the One who makes the crooked path straight, in whose presence our mountains of problems melt like wax. We will need the One who at His Word, the oceans of problems part and create a path into victory for us. We will need the One who does not care where we have been, what we have done, who others say or think we are, who likes us or doesn’t like us. The One who loves us more than we can love ourselves, more than others can ever love us. We will need the One who sees our faith and does not leave us hanging but acts on it in ways that we cannot put into words.

Matthew 15:21-28 New International Version (NIV)

The Faith of a Canaanite Woman

21 Leaving that place, Jesus withdrew to the region of Tyre and Sidon.22 A Canaanite woman from that vicinity came to him, crying out, “Lord, Son of David, have mercy on me! My daughter is demon-possessed and suffering terribly.”

23 Jesus did not answer a word. So his disciples came to him and urged him, “Send her away, for she keeps crying out after us.”

24 He answered, “I was sent only to the lost sheep of Israel.”

25 The woman came and knelt before him. “Lord, help me!” she said.

26 He replied, “It is not right to take the children’s bread and toss it to the dogs.”

27 “Yes it is, Lord,” she said. “Even the dogs eat the crumbs that fall from their master’s table.”

28 Then Jesus said to her, “Woman, you have great faith! Your request is granted.” And her daughter was healed at that moment.

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Evolve into Healing

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It is only the water that is spilled, the calabash is not broken ~ Mauritanian Proverb

Yes, life has dealt you many blows, but the fight is not over, you are still here. Yes, you are out of breath and giving up, but you are still breathing. Yes, you have lost many things, even people, but yet here you are. Yes, you lost your job, but you still carry your gifts, talents and skills. Yes, he walked away, but you are still fearfully made. Yes, she walked away, but you are still wonderfully made. Yes, the mistakes of the past are catching up with you and weighing you down, but you can shake them off and soar.

Evolve into healing! Only the water is spilled. Don’t drown in it. Your heart is raw and hurting, don’t say it is over. Your soul is ripped and aching, bounce back! Your spirit is shaken up, spread your wings. Your substance, your worth, your value are who you are, and not the water that spilled. The life experiences that made the water spill in your life came to chisel you into a man or a woman of character. They came to shape you, and conform you into recognizing and understanding who you truly are and direct you into your, purpose and destiny. Your future, your new beginning await you. You have not scratched the surface yet. Wake up from the weight, of self-pity. Rise up, from the dust of doubt, fear and anxiety. Steady yourself and shake them off. Find your feet, find your wings.

But those who trust in the LORD for help will find their strength renewed. They will rise on wings like eagles; they will run and not get weary; they will walk and not grow weak. ~Isaiah 40:31 (Good News Translation)

Your life experiences spilled over, in the worst way possible, but you can fight to remain intact, spirit mind, body and soul. You do not have to succumb to falling into pieces. You do not have to lose your essence or waste your substance. You do not have to lose yourself, your soul, your mind or your spirit and yield to nothingness. Even out of nothing a thing can be created. Out of your pain and tragedy, beauty can be created.

Take your uncertainty and build something wonderful. Take your loss and create a blessing. Take your emptiness and birth something lovely into being. Take your heartache and evolve into healing. Take your agony and create joy. Take your pain and create sunshine. Take your darkness and create light.

Evolve into healing!

The Golden Glow

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Get your glow. We search, search and search, yet we are still so very hungry. What are we searching for? Who are we searching for? Where are we going? If indeed there exists such a state of joy, peace and confidence, what is it about that state that will  create in us the condition to remain fulfilled, content and anchored, daily?  Is there in fact such a condition?

We search to ease our pain.

We search to ease our discomfort.

We search to get rid of our insecurities.

We search to quench our thirst for happiness.

We search to be filled with joy.

We search to find peace.

We search to find true love.

We are ever on this quest to fulfill this deep, fathomless, bottomless hunger, in our souls. In my search, I discovered that I was searching for myself. What I mean is, I was searching for my purpose in life. On the road to discovering myself, who I am and why I exist, I realized that the more I pulled away from all the noise and outside influence, and the closer I got to the living God, the closer I got to purpose. I needed the courage to look and tap within me. I needed courage to have faith in Him. When that happened, the happier, the stronger, the more confident, secure and peaceful I became. I realized that I have become wiser, steadier, bolder and more courageous. I smile, talk and laugh more. I am less inhibited, less fearful and not filled with anxiety.

Discovering who I am, what I am here for, has given me more hope, faith and the state of knowing that I have the power, in a humble way, to always land on my two feet. There is something about knowing what is within us; knowing what we are created with. I want you, my friend, to experience that state and condition. The knowledge of it will take you to heights of peace, love, joy and strength that you never thought possible. I cannot keep that from you. It would be selfish.

In that state of knowing, we touch and awaken purpose. When we continue to walk in our own purpose day by day, not trying to imitate and be like others, we start cultivating divinity within us. Divinity becomes our fort and anchor, so much so that we naturally become unshakable and unbeatable without trying, because now we know who we are, what our purpose is and where we are going. In this state we are no longer walking in empty, blind hunger, but in the fulfillment of continuously developing purpose and divinity within us. It is an illuminating, non-superficial, beautiful and wonderful thing!

We become less stressed and we reign in our emotions, and confront situations with wisdom, understanding, patience and insight; we think deeper and become less and less impulsive.  Even when we are shaken up, we are confident that we will overcome, because we have awoken purpose and divinity within us, and they always find a way to bring us back to the top and land us on our feet. Discover your own purpose, cultivate and nurture your own soul and spirit, allow divinity in you to rise up, and your hunger will be quenched. It will cease. There, my friend, lies the secret to your joy, peace and confidence. In place of the fathomless and bottomless hunger within you, will be birthed what I discovered, and what I call, the endless and fulfilling, golden glow.

Being truly and deeply connected to and with the living God, fills me with, the golden glow.


The Replay


Over, and over and over again. There it goes. The unpleasantness of that memory, causing you to wilt and wither. The thing that turned you into what and who you are today. It’s always triggered by something. Deceptively lying low inside you, as if keeping a low profile, until something happens; a word is said, you smell something, you see something, or you hear something, and it rises to the surface, and you end up replaying and reliving the damage. And you realize, that you are still stuck. You have not overcome it. You have not gotten rid of it. The replay. Always lurking. Always hiding. Always hidden. Waiting to come to the surface.You have to get rid of it, dear friend. You have to end that replay before it ends you.

What caused the replay? What lies beneath that replay? Who lies beneath the replay? What, who brought this replay into your life, your soul, your spirit, your mind, your universe? Have you become comfortable with the replay? Can’t live with it, can’t live without it? Don’t accept that dear friend. Don’t give in to it. I know it is stuck to your soul, but you have to dig it out and let go of it. Otherwise it will constrain you, for all your life.

Look at yourself now. I mean, like, really, now. Now. What do you see? Who do you see? Where are you going? Where is the replay taking you? What is the replay doing for you? Is it enriching you? Is is empowering you? Is it building you up? Is it inspiring you? Is it motivating you? Is it assisting you to fulfill your destiny, your purpose, your dreams?

I think, most likely, in all truth, it is debilitating you. It is withering you bit by bit, making you lose your color, lose your mind. It is draining you day by day. it has probably led you into habits and doing things that you regret; things that further dis-empower you. For how long my friend? For how long? Stop. Stop the replay. Stop it now. Make it go away. Find help, find assistance, or simply write. Whatever you do, don’t let the replay eat you alive. Don’t let the replay deplete, sink and bury you, and deprive you of a fulfilled life.

The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy; I have come that they may have life, and have it to the full.  John 10:10 (NIV)

You do have power over the replay!


Faithful Instinct


Our instincts to cope are perfectly normal. However, let’s be honest, some of the paths and habits we choose as coping mechanisms do not benefit us and others around us; loved ones, acquaintances, colleagues or strangers. We hurt ourselves and we end up hurting those around as well. The flip side of that, however, is that we also have to be careful who and what we surround ourselves with as we try to cope with our situation, because they might actually do us more damage than good! What then is the answer?

What are your instincts telling you to do? What is your natural instinct saying to you? If you search deep, it is probably taking you to a place you never knew existed deep within you. That place is your place of beauty, power, and magnificence, where you never realized how awesome you are. In other words, you faithful instinct, which has always been inside you, is telling you that in order to beat, destroy, overpower and overcome whatever it is that you are coping with, you must find the light inside you, even when you don’t see it, even though you may not know or believe that it exists inside you. But it does dear friend, and your faithful instinct has been waiting for you to discover that truth, the splendor that is inherent in you.  Listen to your faithful instinct dear friend; it is the guide, the path, the lamp, to your deliverance, salvation and liberty.

Your faithful instinct knows the good and the loveliness that reside inside you, and it is trying to reveal them to you. Don’t fight it. It is your true friend; your solace, your peace, wisdom, strength and joy. Don’t despise your natural, faithful instinct. There is no science, medicine or philosophy that is wiser or greater or better than your instinct. Your instinct knows you; your depth, your capacity and your power to will to yourself to live a fulfilling life.

Your naturally faithful instinct cannot force you. It will guide you the right way. It knows your nature, it knows you, and respects your freewill, even if it does not agree with your choices. You will hear many voices giving you all the good advice in the world, but at the end of the day, you have to make the decision and determination to follow your faithful natural instinct, to look within and find that light that you carry, and allow yourself to emanate the most glorious part of you, which is your spirit, stronger than your situation, condition, label or diagnosis that you have ever received.

In the thick of the darkness and the depth of loneliness and despair, don’t you sometimes feel that tug to do better for yourself? I am sure you do. Listen to it, before your salvation is too late. In the midst of all the gloom and confusion, don’t you sometimes feel a pull telling you that you can get yourself out of their grip? Don’t you sense a beckoning from within asking you to get past all that has happened and live? I believe you do, the question is, will you listen?

Don’t you feel a resistance somewhere deep within you, wrestling against all the vices, bad thoughts, mental and emotional torment? You do, don’t you? You are wondering where it is coming from, after all you are too weak and vulnerable to resist any bad influence or terrible thought that comes your way. You’ve lived your pain for so long you might as well cave in, right? When you allow yourself to listen, you will hear faithful instinct coaching you on, and sense it buoying you up. You will catch on that it is awakening you to be in tune with your better yourself.

Your faithful instinct within is fighting for you for your dear life. No matter what, it will always be on your side. Follow it; that is the whole point of having one. Embrace it. Let it lead you out of your present darkness, depression, anger, violence, trauma and suicide.

For the Spirit teaches you everything you need to know, and what he teaches is true—it is not a lie. 1 John 2:27

Don’t just cope! Allow your natural faithful instinct to lead you to flourish!




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What place do you escape into?  What habits do you hide behind? What brought on the escapist mindset? What pain? What agony? What abuse? What violation? What tragedy? what mistake? what guilt? What shame? What self-disgust? Which of these brought this mindset on you? Which of them made you create and develop self-destructive vices?

What masks and facades do you put on?

What is your ultimate distraction from your pain, fears, anxiety and insecurities?

What is it that you do to escape from your grief and heartache?

What is it that you do to get away from the reality and truth of your agony?

What fantasy do you transport yourself into, if only for a moment, to escape the reality of your situation?

What daydreaming mode do you transcend into, to avoid the truth of your condition?

How long will you continue like this? What will it take to jolt you out of it?

When will you choose to accept healing? When will you say yes to being wholesome?

Will you not fight for your life? After reading these simple, yet penetrating questions, will you drown yourself in a alcohol, street drugs, prescription drugs, sex, fantasy, anger, bitterness, anxiety and self-pity? What will you drown yourself in dear friend? Or will you make a decision to stop and rethink your escapism?

I am sure that you have discovered that none of your escapist methods and habits have really worked, at least not to the extent where they give you a clean slate to heal and start your life over again. Escapism is far from reality, far from the truth, and does not bring you the lasting peace, joy and love that you so hungrily crave and desire. It is most likely hurting you and those around you. Get rid of it.

I hope that you will decide to stop escaping and instead, make the decision to gradually change, and live a fulfilling life; one where you have come to terms with whatever it is that is tormenting you. Face that torment, deal with it and lay it down, before it wrecks further havoc in, and damage, your life. Escapism, pretending that the pain, torment, guilt, shame, grief, loneliness and emptiness do not exist, and that the accident and trauma did not really happen, will not do you any good dear friend. It will not bring you lasting relief. It is doing you more damage than good. Lay it to rest, breathe and live!

28 “Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. 29 Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. 30 For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.”  Matthew 11:28-30 (NIV)

Rethink your escapism. Confront your pain, second by second, minute by minute, hour by hour, day by day, week by week, month by month, and year by year, until you overcome. You can do so, and it is possible, with God’s assistance.


What Really is the Matter?

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What really is the matter? Why are you all bent out of shape, hurting yourself and hurting others? What has you all rattled, raging and slamming things around? Why are you so anxious, angry and spiraling from wrath to depression? What has gotten into you, or, what got to you? Who got to you? What was taken away from you? What were you dealt with? What did you have to suffer in silence? What continues to bring you down daily? What has you chained down to darkness? What has clipped your wings and broken your spirit?

Seems like every day you have to find something to control, someone to berate and belittle. Seems like you always have to pick on someone, you always have to change things around, and things and people always have to be the way you want them to be, otherwise you transform into a stormy mood swings, talk with a condescending tone at others, and look down on them as if to shrivel them into irrelevant pieces. Everyone is stupid, everything is stupid, no one is as knowledgeable and as intelligent as you, and you and only you has all the answers. What really is the matter? Get to the root of it before it completely cripples you, and destroys every good thing you set your eyes on, and lay your hands on.

Something is wrong dear friend. If your high is to condemn everything and everyone around you, something is not right. Something is extremely wrong if your pleasure is to bring others down, and make them feel small. Something is really, really wrong when nothing, no one, is ever good enough. There is a serious problem when your fix is to place others under your feet to make yourself feel better. The truth is, you do not feel any better, at all. You can act like you do, even convince yourself that it feels good, but where has that gotten you? How has that exorcised your demons? It’s probably left you drained, alone and lonely. How about redirecting your energy towards why you are the way you are, be mindful that you are that way, and conscientiously, bit by bit, take care of it?

What happened to you? Who hurt you? What is the healing you need? Why are you pulling yourself down, and bringing everyone you meet, down with you? What is the satisfaction you gain from punishing yourself and others, with your pain? Is your rationale that others should pay the price for your demons, even though they had nothing to do with the events of your life eating up your soul, depleting your spirit, and tormenting your mind? What is your wound, injury, suffering, distress? Is your rationale that you deserve the throbbing ache and the burden that you bear? Or are you too afraid to face it; does it hurt too much, and so you hurt yourself, you hurt others?

For God hath not given us the spirit of fear; but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind. -2 Timothy 1:7 (KJB)

What really is the matter? Get rid of it before it takes you to a place of no return!